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Sunday, October 2, 2005
dooce: Christie
Here is a small excerpt of Heather’s blog. The reason I’m quoting it here is because I can understand her anger and because she opened with these 2 paragraphs a viewpoint I didn’t have before - feeling angry because thinking that someone one loves will be cheated when dying and realizing that there is no hell nor heaven and no god waiting for one ‘on the other side’ :
“I still don’t know what I’m feeling or what I’m supposed to feel or why I sometimes feel really angry. I can’t get the image of her gaunt face out of my head or where my mind went in the moments right after I saw her. I don’t know what I believe in terms of religion, and I’m comfortable with that. I’m okay not knowing. But I’m not okay with the thought that she isn’t where she thought she would be when she died. I want her truth to be true for her. I want her to be made whole and living with the God that guided her through her life. She was just too good of a human being for her to be cheated of that.
So when we go to the viewing tonight and the funeral tomorrow I’m going to believe for her, even if just for a day. I don’t know how else to honor a woman who gave her life to that religion, to scores of children, to her mother, to the belief that she was working toward something much bigger. Today, for my aunt, I’m going to believe in her God.”
— (Via dooce: Christie.)
For me it’s a bit easier, I do believe that the being, once out of the body and it’s attachments, will see again absolute truth and full knowingness and - hopefully - giggle at oneself and at the complex and intricate game one just has ended playing and for the life one just has left behind.
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