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Friday, February 10, 2006
Inspiration
It used to be that I would drown in inspirational ideas for what I want to paint and sculpt and write etc. when I would have the least time and I would be flying around in life and no way would I have time to sit down and do it all.
Then, scarcity set it, fearing that I would run out of ideas, because oddly enough, when I was not busy, the ideas would not show, all the abundance I had before was gone and not to be found and often boredom and not creation set in at such times.
So I began to jot down my ideas for then in the future when I have time to do it all - but this time would never come, either it wasn’t right, or I wasn’t in the mood, or I had moved on with life and was no longer interested in that subject etc. etc. etc.- it just never (well, almost never) happened.
But just now I realized the one subject, which as a red thread, always instantly inspired me: looking and trying to understand the interwoven’ess of things, especially spiritual things. Things like parallelisms in religion and tarot and cabbala and color and astrology and and and. It’s absolutely fascinating. I had forgotten how fascinating.
Confronted with the fact that I needed to come up with a bright idea for my art class and what I want to explore I got tickled by the idea to continue where I had left off some 20 years ago as an intermediate step to what I want to be able to communicate on the long run - symbolism and expression - to express philosophical things like “… and there was light”.
When putting together my portfolio for the talk with the art professor I had stumbled over some old sketches of mine where I combined the various fields into something I wanted to paint and this gave me the idea of the series for this semester: tarot and expression. With the idea to pull 3 cards from a pack of 78 and work these 3 into a series of body-mind-soul (each card representing a current state of each sphere).
So that is what I am working on these days - next to creating some new website for a client of mine - and I’m already quite advanced now with the first work - a 2 foot by 4 foot painting/collage of 9 of Coins/Pentacles/Discs.
Quite interesting how my head was reeling the first 2 or 3 weeks and how every sensation came rushing in, it’s as if the adrenaline went sky rocketing. Of course, now I’m confronted with the problem of getting what is in my head and guts ONTO and INTO a visible work of art, but this is a good challenge.
I did do a big deal on research on the subject and packing away the tons of literature I have now on it I was gleaming through the pages of a book and that is exactly when it hit me: I have still so much more to explore in this field, there is so much more I want to pull together - for some odd reason it feels like assembling it all into a dance, even though I don’t think literally about a dance, it feels like on an absolute inner level I am trying to encompass it all with one big sweeping motion and weave it into one huge cup of beauty.
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