It’s in the magnitude of back in 1991 when I would come home at 5 or 10 PM, switch the TV on for “only 5 minutes” and at 4 or 5 AM I would still be switching channels, knowing very well that I needed to get up at 7 or 8 AM, constantly mad at myself for all the things I hadn’t done during said time.
One day, I just had enough of my own non-ethical behavior and I was tired of not keeping my own decisions with myself – so I unplugged the TV, picked it up and carried it upstairs, under the roof in the attic where I had a storage room and I dumped the TV there… and left it there for 6 months and after that I had my own discipline back “in” and my TV watching under control.
What I did now, is of that magnitude.
Even though I was not hooked onto it for a few months now and less and less involved, it still cost me almost $13 a month and it was there to remind me of how much time I’ve put into it with no true outcome, fun, yes, but nothing to show for. And in the past, I have wasted way too much time with it – this, in my own eyes.
I wanted a clear-cut line, something where the potential of skipping off the things that count much more for me and to fall into that, where I could have time fly by, I wanted that possibility eliminated – don’t have chocolate at home if you can’t resist it type: a gesture, a clear “end”, that is what I’ve done.
As with the TV in the attic, it’s not all lost, my friends which have accompanied me for such a long time and grown with me, they are not (yet) lost into the abyss of nothingness. As with the TV, I can very easily turn around, walk a few steps and have it all back again – IF I really want it. Come fall and winter, we will see. But for now: gone.
Yes. I cancelled my World of Warcraft subscription.