Finally! I can feel it once again – this wave of joy, rightness and pouring out of (creative) energy while painting.
It has been too many years since I last “owned” this feeling and I feared it already lost. But in a typical stuborness I have been working towards gaining it again, just not ready to give in.
And only a brief moment ago I had it again… It is not just having something, it is BEING it while being what I feel is truly me. Washed away are other peoples opinions and other distractions of the mind – being fully IN the current time while weaving the colors in depth and expression on canvas.
Right now I am happy. Did not expect it to happen and even though I belief more work is needed to fully re-establish and stablize it: it is here and I will not let loose of it.
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